Draw me back again

I treasure my mornings with God. There’s something about the quiet, the stillness of the early hours, that draws me close to Him. It’s in that calm that I feel most connected and most aware of His presence. But as the day moves on, I feel myself slipping. Life rushes in, pulling me in a hundred different directions. And before I know it, the day has passed without much thought or conversation with God. It’s not that I’ve stopped loving Him. It’s just that my attention gets scattered. And by the time evening comes, I realize I didn’t invite Him into most of it.

For the past few months, I have decided I don’t want that anymore. I want to be all in, not just when the house is quiet and the sun is rising, but in every moment. I want my heart, soul, mind, and strength to belong to Him completely. I want my life, not just the still parts, to reflect my love for Jesus.

Yes, I talk to Him throughout the day. But I want more. I want a deeper awareness of Jesus. Not just once in a while, but all day. Not just quick prayers or passing thoughts, but a heart that stays in conversation with Him. Because I love Him. Because I long to be near Him. Even when I’m busy, even when I’m tired, even when I’m distracted, I want Him right there in it. Not just involved, but welcomed. Not just present, but personal and close.

So what does that look like for us? Maybe it means pausing in the middle of a chaotic afternoon to breathe a prayer. Maybe it means whispering, “Be with me here, Jesus,” as we step into a meeting, wiring a house,  fixing an appliance or folding the laundry. Maybe it’s choosing to thank Him in the beautiful moments or remembering Him when stress creeps in. Maybe it’s just being aware, that he is here and with us. That He wants to share in every moment, not just the still ones.

I want a life that reflects Jesus. I want to see what happens when I am fully His, fully devoted and fully surrendered. What would change in me? What would change around me? Jesus says that when we remain in Him, we bear much fruit. That others will know we are His by the way we love. That our lives will shine like light in the darkness and living water will flow from within us. I want that kind of life. I want His presence to overflow into every conversation, every room, every ordinary moment. Not for my glory, but for His. I want people to see Jesus when they see me. And maybe, just maybe, their hearts will be drawn to Him too.